Some of you may know that my dog Missy had a heart condition. On Friday night, she passed away suddenly. She is my first long term companion, besides a few fish I had when I was a kid, and her death is affecting me terribly.
I was with her when she died. I tried to perform CPR on her. I decided to learn how to do it for dogs, just in case. I couldn't bring her back. That has gotten to me a lot.
The most sad thing is, it was her birthday. She died on her birthday. She had turned 10. I had told my boyfriend that I was afraid she wasn't going to make that milestone, and she just made it.
I got over it all in my head. Everything I wish I could have done to make her feel comfortable. I didn't know she was going to die, but because of her heart, she found it hard to lay down. I wish I could have done so much more for her. It is killing me I didn't.
This is her here, a few months before.
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I don't know what to do. I am just so sad.
